Alone with my thoughts

So I had a day yesterday. Self reflection sometimes dredges up a lot of the unexpected.  Let me start with I have an amazing life.  I have wonderful children,  an amazing husband, a fantastic job, a beautiful home and somehow I still find myself wanting.  There a thousand things I am so grateful for yet I feel sometimes I am just a spectator in my own life.  I am always scheduling this or that running someone here or there.  Always checking in those who need it.  Trying to help where I can in my quiet behind the scenes way.  Wanting.... Wanting to eat better, wanting to be better, wanting to find time to read the stack of books I continue to buy but never have time for.  Wanting to do the cross stitch patterns I have had for years and never come back to.  Wanting without feeling guilty to do things that I find interesting.  That usually doesn't happen as there just are not enough hours in the day and things have to get done.  W...

Hi.... How do people start these things without being completely unoriginal?  Thousands of thoughts come rushing forward wanting to be first. Wanting to be clever, and successful, funny and liked. I have spent more time on social media these last few months than years past and it has given me the time to read and reflect on people and situations out of my control. There are a couple of women I follow and they are in the midst of what I would call an awakening.  Starting fires and rekindling flames from within.  It has caused me a second of pause and reflection on my surroundings.  Have I been true to my core? What is it I want from this life that is not certain to be here tomorrow? Then my train of thought is interrupted by dinner or the dogs or all the million things that need to be done that can not wait as I am the saver of the world. LOL My world consists of four teenage daughters, three dogs, a turtle, a hamster and a husband. More bills than sometimes I know wh...