Today is a yes day!

YES...


After months of saying no we can't go here no we can't do that  no we can't see them.  I said enough Kaitlyn wanted to make french toast by herself YES.  Kaitlyn wanted to go to the beach and float YES.  The older three want to join a mine-craft world together and eat pizza in the living room YES.  I spend so much of my time worrying about bills and life  years from now and where will be that I keep missing where we are.

In the middle of writing this I found out a dear friend of mine at the young age of 38 left us and this earth and I am just at a loss.  How can someone whose been through so much and overcome so much just be gone.  It makes today's yes's mean that much more. 

NO more wasting time.  Live today fully and proudly.  Live with love and express it whenever you can. Don't wait for tomorrow because all to often tomorrow is never promised. 

I need to let go and be the parent these girls deserve. Be a mom I can be proud of.  I spend so much time trying to plan the next I miss the now. 

Rest peacefully my friend you will be deeply missed by all that knew you.

B

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